July 16, 2025

Family hold back

My husband’s family jokes about the FHB (family hold back) when someone is holding everyone else up when they are not ready to leave.

Today we went on an average hike to see some Incredible views on vacation. It was absolutely worth every step!! The hike we completed the other day was as well. But honestly I am so completely out of shape right now and while I am thankful for everything my amazing body has done and continues to be able to do, I have plenty of intrusive thoughts about what a bummer it is that I often cannot keep up.

For work I sit often. I’ve carried and given birth to four children. I’ve spent countless days and nights advocating for or providing care for my parents. I have two part-time jobs plus the privileges (and along with them the numerous challenges) of being able to do a lot of things that stay-at-home parents are able to do.

While sandwiched there really is very little time for self-care and that includes prioritizing nutrition and movement. I’m sure there’s more I can be doing and that there are ways to fit it in, but if you are here at this place with me at this time, I see you and I understand.

And shout out to the amazing woman on the mountain trail with us today who heard me apologizing to my family and told me how great I was doing and that this trail is a hard one. Completely teared up in that moment! Feeling seen and understood! Thankful for those who choose to encourage others!